hi. here are some of my thoughts. was never going to share these, but here ya go.
i love pairing words with music so here’s a playlist of songs that inspire me, rip my heart out, and put it all back together. #dramaticmuch
Actually don’t stay
Stay with me until the concert
Stay with me until the fall
Stay with me until next year
……………..until we’re older
……………..until we figure it out
……………..until i get my first gray hair
……………..until my bones get brittle
……………..until i forget
……………..until i’m 6 feet under
Just. Stay. Until. Until. Until.
It’ll always be “stay until”
It was my evil, juvenile, plan of getting you to stay
Promising you it won’t be forever.
Coaxing you to hold on to us for a little bit longer
That one day you’ll be out of this hell
If you never left
I would have moved back the expiration date of us
Until i was gone.
It’s not that simple
We’re all hanging on by threads
Some just a little thicker
We all have these minds, that surmise
Some just a little quicker
We ebb and flow
With the way life goes
And we call it,
Our simple, simple life
Simple this and simple goes
But nothing will ever suffice
Simple words
Simple world
Don’t come near me
Oh, you fear me
Wrong Directions
If you ever feel embarrassed friend,
Here’s something you should know
The last thing that I said to you
I never told you where to go
I said let’s run away
But I didn’t specify where
So now you ran somewhere else
While I’m stuck alone here
Heaven
Heaven
I’m dreaming of the day
That it’ll all come back my way
A green house on a hill
The grass left me the will
Gravel on my feet
Did the callous make me weak
A different kind of prayer
Only scream if you are there
Whispering Hills to lead me home
Walk a Kansas road alone
Meet me at the pond
That will be my beyond
paper girl
Paper skin, paper skin
You’re just a girl with paper skin
They’ll write notes on your arms
Draw flowers on your scars
And you’ll let them
Let them right in.
Paper skin, paper skin
No one wants the girl with paper skin
But she’ll dry your tears
With her fragile hands
Then watch them frail, and rip, and tear
Paper skin paper skin
Folded, molded and filled with sin
Run in the rain just to kiss you skin
Watch her soul melt as you leave again
Watch her soul melt as you leave again
How to weave 101: confessions of confusion
Many parts of my life
Need to be woven together
But it just so happens
And it just so seems
That I have forgotten
How to weave
Nonsense from a patchwork person
We are all collages
Of people we have met
Drifting through our lives
We pick and choose
Different attributes we want to keep
And what we will give away
To the next lost soul that comes
Into our ever-changing lives
If you think about it,
It’s really quite beautiful
To be one thing yet a million
Think about what part of yourself
You’ll give the next person you meet
And maybe you’ll think or act
a little kinder
a little smarter
and a lot more like your true self